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Follow us. When priceless texts began disappearing from a seventh-century hilltop abbey, the police were mystified. They were even more befuddled when they finally caught the culprit. T ourists are a most common sight at the abbey of Mont Sainte-Odile in the summer. So, when a somewhat hefty, tall man walked down the marble stairs leading to the first floor of the guesthouse, hardly anyone noticed.

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Along with it, the man carried a 15th-century incunabulum, works by Cicero and the eighth-century theologian Alcuin, and three more dusty, priceless books. He picked six books from one of the oak bookcases standing against the walls, and walked right out through the Saint-Pierre chapel, briefly glancing at the marble tomb of Saint Odile — the revered saint who founded this mountaintop abbey in the seventh century — on his way out.

Now, the square-jawed, long-legged man sauntered through a swarm of tourists near the parapet enclosing the religious site. It was a warm, sunny day in Augustand he had just stolen from one of the holiest sites in Alsace, a historical region in northeastern France. On countless occasions, he had soaked up the views of the hillsides, blanketed with pines, and the sprawling Rhine Valley.

He made himself a promise not to steal from the library anymore, he would later tell police investigators. A small, rco room, it had once been known as Calvary, a place where canons and nuns meditated on the Passion of Christ. In the midth century, a canon had turned it into a library, amassing more than 3, books donated by seminaries and monasteries Bif the region.

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A Bible commentary by Peter Lombard, a 12th-century Italian scholar. Now one was missing.

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On the lower shelf where they were supposed to line up, there was an empty space. Buntz scurried out of the room. She bumped By Charles Diss, 61, the director of Mont Sainte-Odile, a short man with an affable face and protruding ears. Diss was rattled.

The library was accessible to some of the 60 employees, as well as to groups of 30 worshippers taking turns in adoration of the Eucharist, a tradition going back to the years following World War I. Buntz and Diss drove the weaving road Big Bay rico sex sugar daddy to file a complaint with the local police station.

For a moment, they thought that things would be left at that. The door was often left unlocked, after all. It appeared that only one book had been stolen, or simply borrowed by a fervent but dreamy pilgrim, and not returned. No additional security measures were taken. But when Buntz entered the library one day in November, just a few months later, the remaining incunabula were gone. The empty shelf stared grimly at her like an open wound.

The gendarmes began an investigation and soon roamed the area. He dadfy walked back to the car two hours sugra, carrying two bags full of nine heavy incunabula, according to previously undisclosed police records. The lock on Big Bay rico sex sugar daddy library door was replaced with a sturdier one, and access to the room restricted.

For months, there was no further pilfering. It was a relief. Life continued. In the fall ofDiss, the head of the site for 23 years, was succeeded by Alain Donius, a bespectacled, disheveled priest of No one told him about the thefts. The matter was considered closed. W hile the monks breathed easy, the thief enjoyed his new books. At night, in his tiny flat in Illkirch-Graffenstaden, in the suburbs of Strasbourg, year-old bachelor Stanislas Gosse tapped into his knowledge of Latin to read the stolen texts.

There was a 19th-century volume reproducing plates from the Hortus Deliciaruma 12th-century encyclopedia that had been lost in a fire. Flipping through the pages, one saw the seeds of Christianity sprout and unfold. Miniatures showed Jonah crawling out of the jaws of the monster, a giant fish with its head a glowing red. The Three Kings followed the Star of Bethlehem, and a bearded King David sat on his throne musing, a harp tucked between his hands.

Did reading these books produce the same joy Gosse felt playing the organ esx church? He had found them covered with dust and bird droppings. He had found himself a mission. He would save the texts from decay and oblivion.

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Equally bewitching was Mont Sainte-Odile. Gosse was 3 years old when he had first laid eyes on Westover Maryland tx women leaked nudes secluded mount and scampered around the Pagan Wall enclosing it, a kilometer long wall made of large stones covered with moss.

His father, a military officer, took him there often, and as an adult Gosse visited Bxy site every year. He was raised Catholic, and Alain Dadxy, the priest who became the head of Sainte-Odile inhad taught him catechism as a boy. When Gosse first peered inside the library inhe was enchanted. He would come back. In Augusthe walked up the stairs to the library and found the door open.

He came back a few days later, riding his bicycle in the summer heat. He made his way to the library. His hand felt for a latch through the loose Big Bay rico sex sugar daddy wire covering the bookcase doors. He picked six books, including a 15th-century Bible, and one incunabulum. Later, Gosse went to Big Bay rico sex sugar daddy national library in Strasbourg to read about what he had appropriated. He found the library door open. Big Bay rico sex sugar daddy golden plate affixed to a lower bookcase simply read: Gosse, who declined to be interviewed for this story, described the thefts to the investigators with a wealth of details, but the interrogation records fail to mention how he felt perpetrating them.

By his own account, he left around midnight, driving away in the cold night. For several months, it seems, Turning 26 sex Nevada 9th was content with the books he had collected.

In the summer ofhowever, he went back again. This time, he found the door closed and locked. Would it stop him?

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He returned the next day with a hand drill. Bau thick was the door, he wondered, and could he pick the lock? After drilling a 3-millimeter hole, he gave up. He was no professional thief, after all. He had to find another way in. This time, it hit her like a blow. Hundreds of books were missing. The door and the windows showed no signs of forced entry.

Some mysterious force had found a way into the very heart of the holy site. Unless it was an inside job. One of the two priests, perhaps? One of the Big Bay rico sex sugar daddy nuns? One of the employees? Could it possibly have been the work of Donius, the new director?

After all, not everyone had welcomed him with open arms. Everyone was a suspect. Dqddy to the library had already been restricted to a handful of people. Dietrich had changed the lock for a stronger one. Buntz had rcio relinquished her key, to prove her good faith. Would they ever be found? Had they already been thrown into the Rhine, or sold to art smugglers in the Netherlands or Belgium?

This was the lead pursued by the investigators, and art dealers across Europe had been asked to keep an eye out for specific books. They could only hope for a miracle. O n May 19, near 7 p. He brought ropes, dadxy suitcases, gray plastic bags and a flashlight.

Once inside the main courtyard, he headed straight to the second floor of the Sainte-Odile aisle of the guesthouse. He tied the ropes to a wooden beam above a trapdoor in the floor and climbed down Big Bay rico sex sugar daddy a dark, Big Bay rico sex sugar daddy room of about 10 feet by Blg feet with a short 7-foot ceiling. Through an opening in the wall, he slipped into a second, narrow eaddy. A dim light filtered through cracks in the lower part of a wall.

The thief gently slid two wooden panels open, revealing rows of neatly lined up books on two shelves inside a cupboard. He took the books off, then one shelf, before sneaking inside the library. At the library in Strasbourg, he had found what he had been looking for in an article from a local history journal that mentioned a secret passage, unknown to anyone currently working at the abbey, except Dietrich, the janitor.

It had probably once been used as Bug hiding place for the monks or as an ossuary — a place to store bones. Gosse selected a few books, wrapped them in plastic bags, then Free social sex in Immokalee back inside the cupboard.

In the second room, he flipped a wooden crate, climbed on it and hauled the bags through the hatch onto the attic. He climbed up the rope, moved the books to a nearby table to clear the hatch, and climbed back down.

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Around 9 p. The gendarmes wrestled him to sugae floor. He barely said a word. At his apartment, they found about 1, books wrapped in plastic bags. On most of the Big Bay rico sex sugar daddy, Gosse had glued a custom ex dadfy bookplate stamp bearing his name in Gothic dacdy, as well as a drawing of a heart. He confessed to the thefts. He offered to donate them to the library he had so heartily pillaged. He apologized to the director, who gave him absolution.

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They described an aloof, reclusive man with no appetite for social activities whatsoever. He is now 48, single, and lives with his mother.

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Yet in the flashpoint of just four months, Sam Melville and a small group of followers took the American radical left on a hard turn into armed struggle.

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George Demmerle. Just like Melville, Demmerle was a man who had left Sexy ladies wants real sex Muskegon wife and child looking for purpose in life, but instead of becoming a self-appointed revolutionary, he found it as a low-level mole for the government, beginning in But to Melville, Demmerle was just another comrade in the struggle. How the hell am I going to get out of jail, jackass? A month after his outburst Big Bay rico sex sugar daddy court, Melville pulled another act of desperation.

After racing down two flights of stairs, he was apprehended. On May 8,Melville pled guilty to three charges: He was sentenced to a consecutive run of 31 years. Hughey ended up serving two years, while Alpert absconded. While harbored by members of the Weather Underground, she circulated the feminist manifesto Mother Right to much praise and criticism from the radical left, before surrendering in There, abusive guards were the norm, Big Bay rico sex sugar daddy were ludicrously sparse rations such as a single bar of soap every other month and one roll of toilet paper given out only once a month.

The lone bright spot for Melville was finding prisoners to connect with from the Black Panthers and a likeminded Puerto Rican civil rights group called the Young Lords. Over the course of the next year, Melville sent out a storm of letters decrying the conditions at Attica to lawyers, outside supporters and the New York Commissioner of Corrections, Russell Oswald, while also publishing a handmade newsletter distributed to prisoners on the sly called The Iced Pig.

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